Been spending these last couple of months up in grey matter, tryna come up with melodies, tryna come up with lyrics, tryna come up with emotion. There’s value in going deep but I’ve been feeling the walls move in closer and closer – as truth comes, melodies develop meaning, sound turn music turn art. That’s a point I can spend some time in, and I must, but it’s also the first sign that the music I make needs to be released into worlds. Your world.
I’m currently recording melodies, and I’m pushing to focus all of my attention on it. This is always the hardest part for me, but I’ve been finding joy in it this time around. Progress.
I can feel these songs coming together and wanting to be off my mind, out with you, so that I can focus on new truths. Replaying the past is good only to a certain point. Now damn, my past is still in your future, crazy how that works.
Been surrounded by new people recently, been feeling a new creative energy and a new mindset forming. Sometimes all of this, in light of not making any real money, feels null. At the end of the day though, it’s crazy to think that I’m capable of creating all this by myself, the music, the songs, the production – the design, this website, the visuals on both TikTok and Instagram. That must be worth something – being able to put music out in this way. It’s worth that you’re listening, I’m doing this for you. None of these motherfuckers do what I do and hey, gotta be proud of that too.
Speaking of new people I’ve been surrounded by – I recently shot images with @josephesapa. He’s a photographer based in the UK and man we took some great images. It’s cool being able to bounce ideas off another creative mind – I’m hoping to get to do that again soon. You’ll be seeing another post of more of my favorite images soon.
Energy I come back to again and again is a night at the club. Free minds.
The club as a place of heightened reality: Everything matters, nothing matters, life is more black and white than outside – you love the music or you hate it, you wanna fuck the guy you just met or you don’t. Decisions are easier being forgotten the next day or discredited due to the coke. The way it should be.
Real life ain’t like that and some of y’all bitches act like it is. Nothing is black and white, it may be for a night but it ain’t for the rest of your life. There is no taking sides, there’s compassion and there’s understanding and there’s working through differences. Fuck off with all y’all gossip.
Music is best when its got confidence to be loved or hated. I been tryna make music like that. It touches or it don’t, and if it doesn’t we’re still cool. These emotions also visible and I’m tryna use visual media for this upcoming album more and more. Great music videos special, it doesn’t have to be elaborate, the aura matters. Being independent I can’t afford big budget shit but hey, I’ma do my best in the upcoming weeks to deliver visuals to the songs I’m writing.
Also been discovering new artists through Youtube recently, less on Spotify – the visual element keeps me hooked a while longer so I can enjoy more new music without jumping ship.
These dudes big vibin’ and they reminding me of keeping it simple – make music and make visuals for that. I’ma try and stick closer to that myself, I been thinking too much, I been trying too much. I gotta get back to doing more. Cause trying is different from doing you feel me.
Can’t do quantity cause I’m still stuck on quality. So I’ma double down and give you more quality. Hope it’ll pay off if not I’m changing my mind but only in another life. This life dedicated to quality.
I’m gon’ leave you with these few lyrics as a teaser of the upcoming album. I’m working relentlessly, hope you’ll love it as much as I love it already in this unfinished state. If you love it half as much it’ll be your favorite album of the year.
Godspeed, love you endless.
LOVE AIN’T FAIR, WE COULD GANG UP ON IT, GANG
THIS LOVE IS THICKER THAN BLOOD, YOUR ASS THICK, ON GOD
