köln based alternative electronic music artist.

written, recorded, produced by me.

17 jun 2021

vocal recording one of the hardest things you can do, its death for me. 100 takes later still unsatisfied, 100 hours later still taking time to perfect a line. and then it ain’t perfect. balancing emotion and technique. tightrope walking bitch. i don’t wanna be a tightrope walker damn.

peace on earth peace on earth piecing together our own worth

peace on earth peace on earth scheming together in our world

saw stars last night for the first time in a long time. the longer i stared the brighter they were, blinded by light. 117.5 for permission to fly, cleared for clear skies. breathe in silent air repeating the cycle you started, somewhere along our way. mind in cycles, everyday the same. every night the same. break out this cycle with you. break out this idea of life with you.

in the studio making music

i’ve been in the studio all day, all week, all month in fact; only breaks at night in moonlight under stars with stars in my eyes from days spent in a daze – but i got a song out of it

the indie pop label just another way of saying hey i’m playing the algorithm. i hate genres. but algorithms rule us, they rule me on tiktok too. and i ain’t that well at following, yet. creativity out the window. but damn i have to find you.

IN PINK OUT 18 JUN 2021

in pink cover

yoooo my new song in pink will be out in a week. 

18/06/21 

i am sooo happy with the cover

we shot this cover a while ago, almost a year ago when we caught a break from the pandemic on mallorca. the cover catches the vibe of the song so PERFECTLY. y’all ain’t ready damn

a snippet for the blog readers:

PRETTY NAILS IN PINK 
MAYBE I’LL FUCK YOUR BITCH 
BABY I’LL BUY YOUR PICS 
FADED FROM A COUPLE HITS

records i don’t have

i been wondering why we’re getting fucked up together, just to forget us? and still we keep sitting next to each other, getting naked with each other, taking images that never fade.

in the market for a record player to play records i don’t have. spotify been sucking so much lately. considering apple music move. move in move out so much moving my mind gone through already. physical seems ideal but impractical. records are the reason to buy a record player, not the music.

skills on my skateboard entirely laughable. gotta practice more and more so nights will be full of that. nights full of chasing an ideal. nights full of the usual. circular motion. another lap round ourselves.

out of practice

out of practice

out of practice for this, out of ideas for this for a while but looking back i like what i’m reading. i had the illusion people would find me through here; false. you here because you want to be here. search and find. welcome. shifts happening in my mind, working more shifts than i did before, more hours in the studio and less time wasted. labour bears fruit. waiting for fruit. waiting for fruit.

out of practice

i’ve got a new song coming 18 june 2021 which is only a week away. ‘in pink’ soon. it’s all yours soon. filming some shit for that, working on new things for that, trying new things for that.

trying to find an audience. trying to find you. and it’s been hard. really hard. focusing on tiktok now, instagram dead in the water. tiktok feels promising. you feel promising. promise me, try me. quality up, quantity up. not either or, both. youtube been sucking me in with promises once again, new video out friday – trying to find an audience. quality and quantity. i’ve been documenting my studio time from time to time. moving faster than before i feel, june and the way it moves is scary. longest day of the year approaching with lightspeed.

this guy just raised the bar.

trying to write in my breaks instead of scrolling through endless repetitions of the same. worth a try, worth every word i spend, i’m spending a lot. daily writing is a must. daily reading for you.

y’all people ain’t writing blogs anymore and im sad about it. where are you musicians writing blogs? talking bout life like talking to a friend.

treat your vocal like an instrument.

don’t forget beauty in everyday. beauty comes. the endgoal is beauty.

out of practice