A month gone and I swear the forever blue of these skies feed my creativity in ways I wasn’t prepared for. Cloudless heavens as direct connection to him – that ain’t god, that’s life talking to me. And when I look up at night, the stars look brighter, a little shinier, and I can tell that is illusion from within. Is it?
I know your eyes light up different around here, the spark as something eternal.
Listen, there’s music everywhere, I’ve taken my keys and made music anywhere, almost falling off cliffs in deep rhythm, tears streaming in awe of beauty – with that beauty captured in sound, easily. And I’m tryna capture it all, although lenses get in the way sometime. They seem to suck light out of the present moment, and I want nothing more than be present. Trying though – for you – for being able to share, to look back on, to reflect. You know, memory a unreliable muse.
My TikTok Account has been in the trenches for a while – asked for help already, with nobody seeing through, nobody seeing what I see daily. Somehow my videos get pushed to Eastern European Countries first and foremost – which is a problem for the algorithm and performance of my videos. Lately I been trying to make more ‘vlog’ style content, trying to expand into something more than just visuals (while keeping the core alive) – but the people my shit gets pushed to don’t understand = don’t care – so the videos do not have a chance. They die immediately. This has been going on for 7 months now. I’ve tried it all, including contacting TikTok support, there ain’t nothing anybody can do.
I’m off to start a new account soon, seeing where this will lead me. The mental clarity of it alone, starting fresh, not worrying about the wrong algorithm, will hopefully be enough to give me a more positive outlook. Although I don’t know what to do with my 85K follower strong account. It feels terrible leaving it to die. Maybe I can go back to it at some point, or it’ll be lost to the internet, as all good media is destined to at some point.
Thing is, and sometimes I appreciate it not enough, in times like these I do though: Music, all mine. All me, no algorithm, no overhead, just me. No dependencies, and learning to mix and master were the last steps in that. So I can go back to myself, go back to my ideas, my vision, and work from inside out, without the need for validation.
Recently been pushing for sounds and a vibe I’ve not been able to create before: Nothing new, but simply my sound, expanded. My sound, pushed into new directions, pulled and extended. I am excited about what I’ve been working on forreal, there’s an eternal beauty here and I’m capturing it.
My next song is already written, produced: I need to record vocals now, which I am preparing for. ‘LOCATION’ will be the first of many songs that hopefully show this newly found freedom, experimentation, love.
I’ve always made songs to live life to, and I want to continue to push that further. If you’re interested, go ahead and show yourself living life to my music, tag me, post a reel, post a TikTok. I would love to find out what you’re experiencing on my music. Like MDMA, like Love.
The Island as a place I can call home, spiritual home, creative home. I am finding beauty laying freely, untouched. The harsh sun uncovers, dries the waters, the ocean, restless, unmoving, opposing forces. I can see the shimmer, the cerulean waters, unimpressed. Flat, still, like mediterranean waters are, almost mirror like, and then storm comes, and then beauty comes, endless cycles.
The ideas are there, the execution is coming, slowly.
Experimenting with ideas of cinema, big synths. Mike dean shit, you know.
The lyrics are coming together as one, as something more than intricate, something beautiful. I’ll be sure to keep you updated, I’m currently working on a new LIFE AS ART youtube video as well. More behind the scenes, more access. Don’t we all want access?
Just know I feel more free, which will make me be able to give you more music, faster.
Being indie and doing this myself without a huge marketing team behind me isn’t the easiest – so, again, if you feel something to your core, if a lyric resonates, do go ahead and share it with a friend,
a lover, somebody
The revolution is coming, we’re inside of it, right inside of the eye of the storm –
LOVE, forever
phlwest.